I had no idea how much cursing I do / did before Daddy made this rule of No Cursing from his little girl.
I’m not going to lie, this has been / is a very hard rule as the words slip out before I’ve even realised what I’ve said.
Last night we had a discussion………
Messing with Master whilst he made the dinner, he told me to shove something up my arse………..me being me retaliated and repeated it to Master. This earned me a spanking from him and a discussion with Daddy about the word arse.
Was it a swear word ?
I didn’t think it was, Daddy thought it was.
Then the discussion continued with Daddy asking if I really didn’t think it was a bad word.
I kept saying no, I asked Master and he said it was.
I still didn’t believe him. Until Master produced a list of what was a swear word. And arse was classed as a mild swear word.
So Daddy asked again.
I said, well I wouldn’t have been allowed to say it when I was a kid. But I guess I will have to accept it’s a swear word.
In truth, I didn’t really think it was a swear word, maybe a bit of a naughty word, but not actually a swear word. Now I know.
I then asked Daddy if I still had to tell him every time I did swear.
He replied, Yes. We agreed on everything and complete honesty.
I said, Oookkkkaaaayyyy.
Have you said something else little minxs ? He asked.
I ignored the comment, I didn’t want to own up.
14 minutes later, he asked again.
Again I ignored the message. My guilt was growing, making me feel sick, worried about the consequences, upset about disappointing Daddy, not owning up, but becoming a bit stubborn, not wanting to own up, so I never spoke to Daddy again.
Until, 56 minutes later when I finally just messaged Daddy.
Daddy replied quickly, asking if I was not speaking to him or if he had upset me.
I told him, he had not upset me. Let’s face it, Daddy could never actually upset me, I was being a brat and Daddy was more worried about me being upset with him than me being a total brat.
He asked, if I was in a mood. So I said, A guilty mood yes.
Let’s be honest now Little minxs, what have you said ? He asked.
May have said bloody a few times and sh*t to a fly in the house, I told him, I’ll admit I wrote it very sulkily.
But whilst we went through the non speaking period I started looking for something.
A good friend on SpankingTube is writing a second novel, only on the Tube though, I’ve said many times it’s too good not to publish, but she’s just happy to keep it there. She often comes up with some very good ideas, the punishments in her books are Extreme and so are the sex scenes. But one idea she came up with made me think. Here’s the scene in the book briefly, the Dom was away, whilst his sub and daughter remained at home. He has secret cameras all over the house, and caught his sub breaking a rule. She had to self spank harshly, whilst he watched then when it was dinner time, she was to take her red spikey mat and sit on it during dinner. He watched making sure she put her bare bottom fully on the mat.
So this got me thinking, you all know by now I watch a video or read something, that sounds really nasty, I end up buying something as similar to the one I had just seen or read. And I thought the idea of a spikey mat may stop my bad language.
So I looked up online if there was something that could work. I found this.
It is long, 74cm-43cm, but you could either just drape it over a chair, hoping no one will spot it or fold it in half. Daddy has already told me I’m to sit bare on the chair when we go out for our meal, so I imagine he will just say drape it over the chair to give me total humiliation.
I showed Daddy, telling him this could be an idea that will help me break this swearing habit. If I ordered it there and then, it will arrive on Saturday so hopefully arrive before we leave to go to Daddy’s.
As usual, I’m sure I will end up wondering why on earth I showed Daddy and why on earth I ordered one.
By the time it was ordered I was late going to bed, so I had to do a quick goodnight message to him and a sorry.
He replied, telling me he wasn’t cross but was upset that I didn’t own up straightaway.
This got me feeling so guilty and upset, I’d disappointed him and it’s the last thing I’d ever want to do, for Daddy or Master. I went to bed and hugged Little Minxs teddy, tears filling my eyes.
For me words hurt a lot more than a spanking. I went to sleep feeling awful, woke up feeling the same.
We did our good morning messages, I told Daddy I felt very guilty and upset, I admitted I swore no more than 4 times on both days, I’d deserve and except my punishment and will try extra hard to stop swearing.
Daddy replied, saying, he still loved me and was still proud of me because he knows I am trying. With regards to my punishment, instead of wearing my bite gag, during my 45 swats with the jokari paddle, I will have a bar of soapy soap in my mouth instead.
So it’s all forgotten, I’m going to try super hard today, well all the time, Daddy is still proud of me for owning up, even if I didn’t there and then, but the main thing is, Daddy is okay, we will video chat at lunch time, mainly because I just needed to make sure he had forgiven me, even though he’s said it in the messages.
So my spanking will be horrendous and going for the meal will be even worse as my tender, raw skin sits on those spikes. But if it makes me stop then it’s worth the pain.
I know Daddy reads my blogs so I’m making a formal apology to him. Daddy, I’m really sorry for saying those curse words, and even more sorry for not admitting it like I’ve always done in the past. I’m sorry I upset you but deserve the punishment and I will take it the best I can. I will try much harder not to swear, Daddy. I promise. XXXXXXX
Here’s the chart Master found online about all the swear words used and what grade they are, I will say I didn’t know some of the words listed. But I don’t intend to use any of them.